To Do List

Study for finals
Take Exam on time
Go Grocery Shopping
Get Hair Cut
Clean House
Pack Clothes
Go See Chris and Calvin's New Apt
Say "Fu*k them other Ni**as"
Get Paint/ Furniture
Clean Old & New Apt
Paint Walls in New Apt
Fully move in
Light Some Candles
Crack a Bottle
Light a Black n' Mild
Sip/Inhale
Swallow/Exhale

M.I.A

Sorry that I've been MIA. I have had a lot going on the past week or so. Normally I blog to release stress or to express how happy I am. I've realized lately that I'm in the middle. I am neither extra upset/mad/pissed etc... or happy/ecstatic etc... so I claim that I have nothing to reevaluate. But today I have realized that I miss blogging and that I did blog for no good reason and it felt good when I did. I know that I don't have many readers but I do appreciate those that do read. I am sorry for those who have missed my ramblings and if u didn't miss me then fu*k you. lol. I guess this blog is suppose to sate that I am back. Seriously. Or at least after finals are over. I have been through a lot these past few weeks. I have met people and lost people and found things out about myself and lost things that i thought i knew. That confusion has led me to this blog tonight. That and that alone. Thank you to all of those who actually care about me. For all those who recognize that life is life and things happen and that you can only blame yourself for your transgressions. I thank God for my life and for showing me the true things in it. Fu*"k everything else. If you don't love me... hate me and go to hell. Period. Thanx for reading.

It'll Shut Down

My momma always told me that when your tired your body will just shut down. Forget the NoDoze, F the coffee, if it has to happen it will. I've been sleeping lately but I haven't been feeling like I get enough. 8 hrs or not I'm just tired. I don't know how I'm going to fix this problem because I've been trying a lot of different methods and I really cannot pinpoint what the hell is going on. I realized today as I missed my class because I over slept, that I really need to fix this little problem that I have. I went to class at 1:10pm instead of 1:40pm so I decided that I would sit in front of the door and wait for class to begin. All I remember after that is some really loud boy talking about something very uninteresting waking me up out of my great siesta. Then as I got up to walk into class I realized that it was over. GREAT Right?!? I know! I really need to fix this problem. I look like sh*t and the feeling is mutual and that's enough to make me wanna fix it. Please Help Me Sleep GOD! [as in the god of sleep] Bless me with a REM that lasts so long people think I'm in a coma. PLEASE! Seriously. Help Me.

An Observation

I'm watching him sleep with his son. So peaceful as Christina plays in the background. Am I ready for this? He's been staying here and I'm loving every minute of his presence. Loving every minute of his smile. Loving the way he makes me smile. Not ready to love him though. Conflicting emotions about whats right and whats wrong run through my mind all the time. Actually its more like whats socially acceptable and whats not. Trying to do me and not listen to outside influences but, I can't help but think about others comments on the relationship. But the way he makes me smile... he definitely infatuates me (which is slightly different from being infatuated). I ask again, "Am I ready for this commitment." I've already dug my hole and put one foot in. I'm not saying I regret that decision I'm just a tad bit susceptible about whether or not I can fulfill all of his, mine, our expatiation's. He doesn't seem phased by the uncertainty though. Taking it one day at a time is the motto he seems to follow. Am I wrong for wanting to look towards the future and feeling uncertain? Confusion as I type. Confusion as I watch him and his son sleep in the same position, calm as the Christina plays in the background.

A light that shines Special

This weekend was filled with many ups and downs. I was pissed, happy, upset at petty things and thrilled about the best. A weekend full of mixed emotions. A wise man once told me... let it go. So I did, hopped in the car,C's plugged up the I-Pod, and Common came blastin thru the speakers. Elated was the next emotion that came over me. As I basked in the lyrical glory, all I could think of is, "I can't wait to blog about this experience," allowing all who read to take it back to a more loving, calming place. Enjoy.

"Grated we known each other for some time
it don't take a whole day to recognize Sunshine"

Intellectual Heritage

In Intellectual Heritage.. not really gaining any intellect. There's a girl in my class who is yapping her head off. lol. The professor has been trying ot get a word in and stop her but its SoOo not working. So funny. She is so pouring her guts out about the Islamic faith. Whooo!!

I can't wait to leave and get SAUCY!

Apologize to the other B of BBC this post is definitely not deep and is so one of those posts we mock from time to time. My B.

Artist Maybe

I grew up around a lot of art. My father was a great artist who took his craft for granted and eventually lost it. He always told me as a child that when God gives you a gift you should always express it and thank him everyday for it or he'll take it away. We'll I feel as though that that is not only the case for my pops, who always reminisces on how great he used to draw my mothers face when they first meet at age 19, but for me as well. I kind of inherited the creative art through pictures gene but I never really looked at it as though it was something that I should work on, perfect, and share with the world. (my dad says he saved some of my early art so I could look back and say what if one day... something he should have done) Anywho, I still grew up with an appreciation for some good art. Mind boggling art. Beautiful Art. Abstract art. Art period. My uncle sent me some make ya mind go crazy art yesterday. Check it out. Tell me what ya think. Enjoy, I know I did.

It took me a while to see what i should have been seeing. Do you see it?

Which man is the tallest of the three?

Do you see the 3 faces?

Liar?

Can you see the word? Most girls see it easily... men don't!Last one! Read the directions at the bottom of the pic.

Things he does for me

I've met a MAN ya'll

1. Massages away all my aches and pains. From my hips to the tips, of my collar bone. And please don’t think that the arms and legs, fingers and toes aren’t considered part of home. Those get massaged just as well as the dome.
2. After my full body massage you can be sure that I’ll get a full body massage. Followed with a thorough cleaning of all parts relaxed. Yes ladies he washed my feet and my back.
3. He makes breakfast, lunch, and dinner for me. No I’m not talking your average bowl of cereal. I’m talking toast from France, eggs with cheese that made my stomach dance, and a side of beef. Bacon that is. Don’t think I need to further explain Lunch and Dinner are the same.
4. As he washes dishes I gaze upon the man who… DAMN…is washing my dishes!
5. :sigh:: Tired, as he rubs my head, I rub my eyes to fall fast asleep. Deep slumber im in only to be awakened for a snack by sweet kisses down my back. You’d think I’d be pissed but that smile coupled with that sweet kiss… ladies… ::smh::
6. He pours me drinks when im thirsty
7. Washes my hair when it's dirty
8. Cleans my room just becasue he knows I like it.
9. Kisses me gently on the forehead when I awake from sleep.
10. Shit did I mention he washes and Massages my feet (that has got to go on this list twice)

I have not met a man like this in all the years i've been givng out kisses. He’s sweet, caring, fun, compassionate, affectionate, strong, funny, intelligent, and honest. The things he does for me… ::sigh::

Money in the Bank?

I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO MANAGE MY MONEY. AND SPEND WISELY. INVEST AND WHATNOT. GOD PLEASE HELP ME SOLVE MY MONEY PROBLEMS. I WAS RICH YESTERDAY AND NOW I'M BROKE!

UGGGGGGG!!

The Countdown

I feel ya sista! My home should be where my heart is but instead I feel like I need to get away. I've been feeling this way for a while. I can never come home to peace and quite there's always a gallizion people in my house. ALWAYS! And it seems as though they don't know how to leave at a reasonable hour. I mean on the weekends its cool but, during the week... ALL THE TIME? I mean... come on! Don't get me wrong I love my friends but, sometimes I just need.. PEACE & QUIET! Maybe throw on some Ne-yo Soul, light some candles, kick back, smoke a mild (or 2), and chill. Mellow out. Be EAZY. But, since my "home is where the BEER is" I'm never alone. Party F'n City!

49 days till the move and a female like me... can't wait!

(Cal, Chris, Uch... I definitely feel ya'll)

Land HO!!!!!

My daddy came to visit me yesterday not only did he bring me Yankee Candles, too much perfume for one woman, DVD, CD's, and jewelery but, we went shopping. King of Prussia is expensive and everything in there is too name brand looking. But, despite all let downs in damn near every store (except PAC SUN) I still was able to find these sneakers/shoes. Sperry's actually. I was walking past the table and they just caught my eye. I had to have em! I've never owned a pair of shoes like this. Style...color... everything included. Check em out tell me what you think...

FLYY?

UHHHH.,....

i have nothing to say... and therefore there is noiting to blog about... sorry... i am just not inspired by anything that is going on in my life right now!!! .......

JerZy EnT.

So. If nobody knows.... Imma JerZy girl. I rep jersey till the day I die. Some of my JerZy Boys on campus have been throwin parties and honestly they're doin their thang. Last party... packed at 10:45pm... doors opened... 10:00pm. Yes it's that serious yall! Lets Get It!

LETS PARTY!!

We've Done It Again. On April 4th, 2008
JERSEY BOYS ENTERTAINMENT PRESENT...LIGHTS OUT PART 2: UNPAID BILLS EDITION 10PM UNTIL

The Lights Come on@ THE GARDEN STATE MANSION1727 MONUMENT AVE (17TH & MONUMENT)
3 FLOORS TO PARTY ON.
SPECIAL VIP ROOM (bottles will be popped all nite long).
Jersey's own DJ MoFo on the 1s & 2s.
Everybody $5 b4 12pm!
***FREE*** JERSEY JUICE TIL 12PM...1ST 50 Ladies in for ***FREE***
Beads Given Out 2 Females at the Door.....Fellaz earn 5 sets of beads from the ladies n get your FREE SHOTS
2$ a shot if you cant get it poppin!!!
Jersey Meet Philly Ticket Giveways!!!!!! Jersey Boy T-Shirt Giveaways!!!!
***Free*** Shots to the Sexiest Ladies
TIGHT SECURITY provided by TOP FLIGHT!!!!
This party will not get shutdown.
It will be packed so get there early!!!!!

JERSEY BOYS... you already KNOW!

David Brown

Ok so maybe some people knew but, I know Damn well I didn't. Young Buck has a clothing line. And its noting like 50's. I actually like the items. I mean it helps that's he's sexy so I decided to Google his ass to see what was new. (totally off topic and has nothing to do with his clothing style) Um.... but, yeah! So take a look I honestly wouldn't mind seeing my dude in any of these articles. Word.

Take a LookSee!

"An Then a Big Brown Shark Came"

Ok. So I have a paper due at 1:10pm and a class at 11:40am. So I shouldn't even really be on here. But I was watchin this with my girls last night and I cant get if off my mind.


I kno, I kno. I cant post that one if I dont post the part everybody knows even if they haven't seen Delirious. So Enjoy!


Ok Gotta Go Now! Wish me luck on my paper!

Runnin'

I was at a friends house watching MTV Jams, which doesn't play nearly enough "Hip-Hop" as they should, and this video came on. It immedately made me think of Cousin Chris and yea so here it is.

Who loves Hip Hop? Brandi Loves Hip Hop! Is it? I do, I do, I doOooO!

The embed thing-a-ma-gig to the original version was disabled so...

Tatted Up!

Sitting in the SAC conversing about tattoo's for a hot min. And I realized how un-original people can be when marking their bodies. Myself included. Every one has a Adinkra Symbol. And its always the Sankofa, or Chinese/Arabic writing. A cross, a butterfly, or stars, it's all the same. Now I have 7 tattoos! All of which are not
original (they were either found on a website or in a book).

I vow from this day forward that whatever tattoo I get, it will be totally original, meaningful, and unique to my style. Maybe something that i'll draw up! Who knows. Be on the look out for some "fire" body art from Me.

GoogleMe

Ran across this on the Web. I was like DAMN this the chick from my Super Sweet 16! And I actually like the song. I tried to look up when her album was going to drop but,no luck! Anywho... check it out. Feed me back. Enjoy or Not.

Teyana Taylor - Google Me

(click here to view video)

More Randomness

Just some randomness... I really slept all day today and so I like have a tad bit more energy than I would like but I'm tired. It's weird, don't ask. Anywho. Check this out.

Try to watch this wothout laughing or grinning. You get no credit unless you watch the whole thing all the way through
Somethimes I wish I had an extremely weird talent I could make money off of.

Ok so this lil boy is so cute. Who thinks he wrote this rhyme? Even if he didn't doesn't it seem like he know exactly what he's talking about?

Haha! I saved the BEST for last. Remember this! "Y lo shalala my Ass!"