Diggin On You

"I must admit to you
When I heard the lines you threw
Although it usually turns me off
But this time you have turned me on
Lights off, Lights on
I guess the groove is on and I am..."

(definitely love this song)

A New Day

A New Day is upon us

The sun is out

People are singing with the birds

And the early morning air hits me as I wake

Deep Breath

Breathe Deep

Today is a New Day

A new day, to make new mistakes,

and correct the old ones

A new day, to create new things

and admire the old ones

A new day to be with loved ones

Today is a New Day

Breathe Deep

Take a Deep Breath for God has given you and I the opportunity

to breathe today

To love today

To eat today

To play today

To work today

To be Today

Today is a New Day

And I will breathe deep,

take in my surroundings with every breath

and let this Life consume me with joyous memories.

Take me in

Envelop me in happy days,

as I exhale the bad ones

Deep Breath

a New Day is upon us

Today is a New Day

I Feel Good!!!

YAY FOR ME!!!! I def feel alot better today. A friend told me that "every now and then you need to drop your drawls and start shittin on people just so they can get it in their head that's it's not a game!" i just recently took a huge dump on other pplz bull sh*t and flushed it down the toilet... n now I feel like dude in the video...

b4 his moms ruined the fun... lol

have a great day all

The Necessary Turn Around

Haven't posted in a while... feel the need to extend myself farther then I have been lately.. I don't really want to do it. but keeping myself bottled up inside is just no bueno...



Here it goes...



I know that this life is not my own and even though I will say that I don't acknowledge the big man up there as often as I should, I know he knows that I know all things in my life are possible because of him. At one point I was so in love with my life I think I was a BITCH. Possibly too confident... and now I just have no confidence. Things are just falling apart in front of me and I have no idea what to do... I've prayed and Ive cried ::I'm crying now:: and it just doesn't seem like things are meant to go right for me. I wish I could just pour my entire heart out on this blog... but that too much personal business on the Internet thang is just no bueno. I've recently done some things that I would have never done on a normal day... all just to barely get by. I mean I know that college is hard and people are broke but when your hungry from not eating for days it's hard to have a positive attitude and believe that every body's stomach is growling as loud as yours. This life is sucking the life right out of me.



The decisions that you make in life are your own and you have to deal with them accordingly... and I know that this is true. But, it is damn hard not to feel like I'm drowning. Like I'm falling into a bottomless pit of sadness and strife. I need a pick me up. And i will say that I made an attempt this past weekend. I failed. Instead it (the weekend) was filled with petty arguments, death defying fights, immaturity, degradation, and choices that were just made in complete haste.



For the past 16 months I have been poked and prodded, pulled and shoved by a whole mess of BULLSHIT... and I need to place my feet firmly on the ground and move forward. If not, I am sure to break down and end up in a place where no one should ever be.



I need to stop letting people take advantage of my kindness, loyalty, and big heart while fessing up to the fact that its not the people in my life that are fuckn shit up but, it's me allowing them to do so. Living for me is a necessity right now.



I have been so downtrodden by these obstacles in my life that I've missed a good chunk of my life lately. Staying in the house, not doing the work that needs to be done, drinking way too much, crying every other day, never getting dressed, mad at the world. It all stops here. Right here right now.



two tears in a bucket... fuck it...





exhale